I am going to keep this letter short and sweet even though my problem is both long and difficult.
As nerdy and ridiculous as it sounds, and as surely as you all are going to judge me, I met my current boyfriend and love of my life after 3 years of communicating online. When I say online, I’ll just admit that we met because we both are avid gamers and we met on the battlefields in World of Warcraft.
Go ahead and crack your nerd jokes. Come one and get it out, as I’ve already heard it all from all of my non-gamer friends and family members.
After 3 years, I began to fall head over heels in love with this man without evening seeing his face for the first 2 years. Then one day we sent emails to one another outside of the game as well as skyped, where we discovered that we were both Black and both rather attractive. I will admit that seeing how fine he looked added a serious amount of lust to the already fond feelings I had, and to add coincidence and bliss to the equation, we discovered we lived only 3 hours away from one another.
Of course we met up a few times, but nothing sexual came of it. Just some heavy petting and cuddling on the couch or playing Warcraft next to each other on our laptops.
After 4 visits though, I could take it no longer and I molested him. I admit it. I made the first tawdry move. Judge me!
But what I discovered was a monster.
His dick was absolutely huge. I don’t mean slightly big, and I don’t mean need for magnum condoms big, I mean an absolute hysterectomy causing sized beast. It’s not a two-hander. Not even a 3 hander. I can stack my hand over hand twice and the head still peaks out the top. Not to mention it is as thick as my damn wrist.
I have been told I have a small mouth and I know it to be true. That is why I have to open my mouth to the extreme in order to engulf some of him inside. No lie; I got a little carried away trying to felate him and I split the edge of my mouth a little.
Needless to say, sex is a CHORE!
Riding him is absolutely out of the question as If I go down too far I swear my reproductive womanhood is shoved up into my lungs.
Missionary is difficult due to the fact that If he gets a little too excited and goes too deep, it feels like torture and I can’t scurry away quick enough on my back. Doggy style is the only position we can do and both achieve orgasm since if he goes too deep, I can run away easily on my hands and knees.
He is such a sweety, nerdy awkward and a good guy which is why he hasn’t had many girlfriends in his life, which means he hasn’t had much practice controlling that damn creature attached to him. I DO love him, but I feel inadequate for him sexually.
What should I do?
The thickness I can overcome but the great lengths he can go? Dear God!
Help me, ohn!
- Sincerely not that deep.
Beth edit: Slaus you wrong as hell for laughing!
Anyway, darlin’ sweetie…
Bless your heart…I will not laugh because it is not funny (glares at Slaus)
I can’t speak on the mouth tearing part…that sounds painful
but as far as intercourse I’m wondering how nervous you are during the actual act. That can cause you to tense up and make sex not so fun…
If that is not the case then maybe you need to talk to your OB/GYN about the situation…sexual pleasure and compatibility is important to a relationship so don’t think talking to your doctor is doing too much. If you love this man and want a lasting relationship then there is nothing wrong with talking to your doctor.
Also, if you know anything about OHN you know how we feel about love on the internet…there is nothing wrong with how you met and fell in love with your boo.
Good luck to you!!!
*glares at Slaus* stop laughing fool!!!